THE SAGA OF A BROKEN VOW
You came and knocked at my heart
Unanswered it went, ‘cos dead it was.
Rose up to life ,breathing some peace
But scared I remained, huddled with grief.
Pretended to be dead , it didn’t respond
Habit grew in fondness,
Fondness in love..
But scared i remained, at every turn.
Pieces of me fell again
‘cos this confession they couldn’t explain
Hatred for self grew so strong,
‘cos I refused to accept a beginning so strange.
Blamed for clinging to solace;
I wondered how could I find life again
As I discovered a new reason to exist,
From confessing my love I couldn’t refrain.
I knew I won’t kiss away the pain
But all the doubts faded away..
I learnt to live in some misty hope
But again…., scared I remained..
I found love when I never expected
And it grew with everyday.
Pain and chaos didn’t die though,
But they started to disintegrate.
I dreaded to lose this new place
I knew my hopes will surely break..
Haunted I was to be struck by misfortune
‘cos I knew I will repent the decision I made.
A storm swept me with its rage
In a flash devastated everything was laid..
Love lost trust , faith lost hope
And pieces of me started rotting away.
Your lies killed me , nothing you could save,
My heart wept over its wreckage;
My mind screamed for explanations
Speechless you stood, had nothing to say..
Alone I was left to mourn my death
And to witness your absence
Your every move was so wrong,
Aimlessly dragged towards this end.
Now I curl in an unbearable sorrow,
I have no one to blame..
There was never a hopeful tomorrow
Didn’t I say …..scared always I remained…
You threw me in a bigger mess..
Bigger than from the one you picked me up..
When you knew you won’t be able to put up a fight
Why did u take me to heaven with the touch of your love??
Never did I want to share my pain
That’s why holding on was an insecurity
And now I ask you to move on , unscathed
And gather pieces of your dignity..
You return with dismay and a broken existence
And I’ve started living with a pretense
A pretense of fake living and a disgusted survival,
A craving so strong to feel your presence.
I was wrong to have thought to live again
And the attempts went all futile.
And you have come back now
After I have helplessly died..
Still your presence lingers around
Chaos of my life suffocates though,
Newer misery with this new ruin
A new world of pain I have found…
You came and knocked at my heart
Unanswered it went, ‘cos dead it was.
Rose up to life ,breathing some peace
But scared I remained, huddled with grief.
Pretended to be dead , it didn’t respond
Habit grew in fondness,
Fondness in love..
But scared i remained, at every turn.
Pieces of me fell again
‘cos this confession they couldn’t explain
Hatred for self grew so strong,
‘cos I refused to accept a beginning so strange.
Blamed for clinging to solace;
I wondered how could I find life again
As I discovered a new reason to exist,
From confessing my love I couldn’t refrain.
I knew I won’t kiss away the pain
But all the doubts faded away..
I learnt to live in some misty hope
But again…., scared I remained..
I found love when I never expected
And it grew with everyday.
Pain and chaos didn’t die though,
But they started to disintegrate.
I dreaded to lose this new place
I knew my hopes will surely break..
Haunted I was to be struck by misfortune
‘cos I knew I will repent the decision I made.
A storm swept me with its rage
In a flash devastated everything was laid..
Love lost trust , faith lost hope
And pieces of me started rotting away.
Your lies killed me , nothing you could save,
My heart wept over its wreckage;
My mind screamed for explanations
Speechless you stood, had nothing to say..
Alone I was left to mourn my death
And to witness your absence
Your every move was so wrong,
Aimlessly dragged towards this end.
Now I curl in an unbearable sorrow,
I have no one to blame..
There was never a hopeful tomorrow
Didn’t I say …..scared always I remained…
You threw me in a bigger mess..
Bigger than from the one you picked me up..
When you knew you won’t be able to put up a fight
Why did u take me to heaven with the touch of your love??
Never did I want to share my pain
That’s why holding on was an insecurity
And now I ask you to move on , unscathed
And gather pieces of your dignity..
You return with dismay and a broken existence
And I’ve started living with a pretense
A pretense of fake living and a disgusted survival,
A craving so strong to feel your presence.
I was wrong to have thought to live again
And the attempts went all futile.
And you have come back now
After I have helplessly died..
Still your presence lingers around
Chaos of my life suffocates though,
Newer misery with this new ruin
A new world of pain I have found…