ILLUSION
Happy days are gone
That smile doesn't return
Tears are what I have
What is there yet to come?
To kill someone is murder;
to kill oneself is suicide
Out of this fury when will you come
Where will you ultimately reside?
Past has gone, future is dark
There is no end,there is no start.
Miseries gaze; I shut my eyes
What is difficult - to live or to die?
Darkness prevails adding to my misery
Someone may be near; but I cant see.
I walk and stumble; fall on my way
And I could reach out to nothing but agony.
Faces are turned, promises undone,
Memories remain, rest is shunned.
What was the truth; what is the lie?
What was there , is not today in sight.
Time ticks away; people pass by
Life has become stagnant, I am left behind.
No cure, no remedy exists for this state of mind
As pain heightens, hopes try to commit suicide.
Joy shed tears, miseries laugh
Dreams betray, adversities last.
Was that right? Is this wrong?
No sense of judgment I've anymore.
What went wrong no way I can find,
Circumstances have crippled my fatigued mind.
This terrible experience makes me feel dread,
Physically alive , yet emotionally I'm dead.
Whatsoever went wrong, whosoever at fault
What difference does it now make at all?
These sufferings, pain, miseries and cries
do not seem to end,
until forever I close my eyes.
As I count these moments slipping by
Those fine memories again strike,
I am waiting for that last breath,
Yet the blurred images appear again in front of my eyes.
I feel the pain increasing; my heart sinking,
I am reminded of the constant sorrow,
My cries shout and shriek.......
Please let me go, let me go,Let me go
That smile doesn't return
Tears are what I have
What is there yet to come?
To kill someone is murder;
to kill oneself is suicide
Out of this fury when will you come
Where will you ultimately reside?
Past has gone, future is dark
There is no end,there is no start.
Miseries gaze; I shut my eyes
What is difficult - to live or to die?
Darkness prevails adding to my misery
Someone may be near; but I cant see.
I walk and stumble; fall on my way
And I could reach out to nothing but agony.
Faces are turned, promises undone,
Memories remain, rest is shunned.
What was the truth; what is the lie?
What was there , is not today in sight.
Time ticks away; people pass by
Life has become stagnant, I am left behind.
No cure, no remedy exists for this state of mind
As pain heightens, hopes try to commit suicide.
Joy shed tears, miseries laugh
Dreams betray, adversities last.
Was that right? Is this wrong?
No sense of judgment I've anymore.
What went wrong no way I can find,
Circumstances have crippled my fatigued mind.
This terrible experience makes me feel dread,
Physically alive , yet emotionally I'm dead.
Whatsoever went wrong, whosoever at fault
What difference does it now make at all?
These sufferings, pain, miseries and cries
do not seem to end,
until forever I close my eyes.
As I count these moments slipping by
Those fine memories again strike,
I am waiting for that last breath,
Yet the blurred images appear again in front of my eyes.
I feel the pain increasing; my heart sinking,
I am reminded of the constant sorrow,
My cries shout and shriek.......
Please let me go, let me go,Let me go