LAST WISH

something holds me back
when i seek my death
but i want to leave
and never come back..

i hold nothing for this world,
nor this world has anything for me
i don't want to live with myself anymore;
nor with anybody.

may be i am hurt deeply
and i keep on hurting others
but i can no more stand this confusion
'cos i have grown a stranger here.

misery surrounds me from every direction
and pain comes running to me
sorrow manifests itself as tears
this life i'm unable to bear; i feel.

i want to jump this life to its end
i want to go to my GOD and stay there
i asked my lord to call me to Him
but i'm not lucky to get my death,i think...

what holds me back is not anything worldly
nobody and nothing calls me back,
but my God doesn't allow me to end my life,
when He sends death..then only i can die.

grant my wish , i plead
my survival is the biggest disturbance for me
pain has buried itself inside myself
and i've become a problem for everything
as everything has become difficult for me
so,my lord let me get buried;
let my soul be freed;
let it come to You and find some peace......
'cos i'm screaming for some relief........